Sunday, December 14, 2014

At Just The Right Time

This morning I during my time with God I was reading in Galations chapter 4 when verses 3-4a jumped out at me: 
In the same way we also, when we were children, were in slavery under the elemental forces of the world. When the time came to completion, God sent His Son...
I got to thinking about my own time of slavery.  When I was 12 years old I made the intellectual and heart decision to ask Jesus to be my savior.  I knew that because of my sin I was separated from God and was doomed to Hell. I wanted to spend my eternity in Heaven.  I was baptized in water, but I didn't change.  I was a slave to the tides of my emotions and the hurts in my heart.

Over the course of many years I tried to follow God, but I was doing it in my own effort.  I memorized tons of scriptures, studied God's Word and was mentored by amazing people God put in my path.  He was there with me and gave me spiritual discernment that I did not have had on my own.  

But I didn't exactly consult God about how I was living my life and the decisions I was making.  I tried and tried many ways to fill the vast emptiness inside of me through the tempting offerings of a sinful world.  The void got bigger and bigger, and the pain inside me from all the losses and wounds grew increasingly unbearable.  One day I was driving on a mountain road, considering driving off the road to end the pain, weighing the permanence of such a decision and the devastation it would wreak on others.  In that moment, God spoke the words of His Son to my heart: 
 I have come so that they may have life and have it in abundance.  John 10:10
That's what I wanted!  I didn't want to die!  I wanted to really, really live!  What  a life-giving moment.  My decisions from that point were based no longer upon existing, enslaved to my feelings and past, but upon THRIVING--living in the fullness of my salvation through having Jesus be Lord of my life.  

As I have grown in my relationship and trust with God, I have seen how the more I let the Holy Spirit take control in my heart and trust Him with the difficult trials, I have peace and freedom.  I don't ever want to go back to that time of slavery from which God rescued me at just the right time.
Christ has liberated us to be free. Stand firm then and don’t submit again to a yoke of slavery.  Galatians 5:1
As the time nears for special celebration of the birth of Christ, I celebrate how He liberated me from the chains and encumbrances of this world into freedom in Him. I AM FREE!

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Those Capricious Goats!

Today’s Word of the Day from my iPad's Dictionary app is “caprine,” an adjective of or pertaining to goats.  

This self-described wordsmith’s first thought is that "caprine" must be the root word for "capricious."  Wrong.  “Caprine's" derivative is Latin and came along around 1600, several years after the French derivative of "capricious."  Further dictionary use tells me “capricious” means "subject to or led by or indicative of a sudden odd notion or unpredictable change; erratic, " or "obsolete, fanciful."  It comes from the music term capriciosso which means "fantastic".  

Back to Word of the Day, my next thought turns spiritual:  "Do you want to be a sheep or a goat?"   

All the nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate them one from another, as a shepherd divides his sheep from the goats. And He will set the sheep on His right hand, but the goats on the left.              Matthew 25:32-33 NKJV

A quick internet search on goat behavior leads me to a very lengthy discourse on Wikipedia.  I know you can’t wait to read it. ;O)

Goats are extremely curious and intelligent. They are also very coordinated and widely known for their ability to climb and hold their balance in the most precarious places. This makes them the only ruminant able to climb trees, although the tree generally has to be on somewhat of an angle. Due to their agility and inquisitiveness, they are notorious for escaping their pens by testing fences and enclosures, either intentionally or simply because they are handy to climb on. If any of the fencing can be spread, pushed over or down, or otherwise be overcome, the goats will almost inevitably escape. Due to their high intelligence, once a goat has discovered a weakness in the fence, it will exploit it repeatedly, and other goats will observe and quickly learn the same method.

So, goats are constantly testing the limits, crossing the boundary lines simply because they can and want to.  My dog Belle is an extremely intelligent Border Collie-Labrador mix, and she makes hobby of finding ways to escape our yard just for the sport of it.  She climbs, digs, squeezes, jumps to   break free for an adventure.  As a follower of Jesus, when I "break free" from God's fence of guidance provided in His Word by stumbling or jumping into sinful behavior, I make sport of Jesus' suffering on the cross to pay penalty for my transgressions.  This kind of erratic behavior in a Christian would seem more characteristic of a goat than a sheep.

More about goats:
Goats have an intensely inquisitive and intelligent nature; they will explore anything new or unfamiliar in their surroundings. They do so primarily with their prehensile upper lip and tongue. This is why they investigate items such as buttons, camera cases or clothing (and many other things besides) by nibbling at them, occasionally even eating them.

When my children were babies their curiosity was a cue to their untapped intelligence.  Curiosity's strength  became my friend “Gina’s” weakness when her inquisitiveness drew her into the dangerous realm of the occult.  Her curiousity gave way to behavior which eventually caused her to lose her job, her reputation, and finally her child.  “Gina” turned away from God because she could not recognize His voice.   John 10:4 says "his sheep follow him because they know his voice."  Verse five goes on to say that His sheep won't follow a stranger but will only follow His voice.   A spiritual goat, such as "Gina," searches for and follows after spiritual ideas that are novel and fit into her own notion of who God is and/or how the universe operates.   Proverbs 14:12 warns us, “There is a way that appears to be right, but in the end it leads to death.”

Back to Wikipedia:
When handled as a group, goats tend to display less clumping behavior than sheep, and when grazing undisturbed, tend to spread across the field or range, rather than feed side-by-side as do sheep. When nursing young, goats will leave their kids separated ("lying out") rather than clumped as do sheep.  

 Every year a the Fort Worth Stock Show Rodeo groups of kids are given the opportunity to earn scholarships by trying to rope calves.  It's sort of like herding cats; those calves spread out in all directions.  But in another segment of the rodeo when a little border collie goes out to round up sheep, the sheep stay together as a flock.  While I do not want to feel like I have to “follow the crowd,” per se, I also don’t want to have to go it alone.  I cannot tell you the number of people I’ve talked to over the years who insist they do not need to go to church to be a Christian.  They rant about how they worship God in their own homes in front of their TV’s and don’t have to be with all those hypocrites.  This is sad because fellowship with God’s people keeps us encouraged and keeps us from becoming ensnared in sin.

And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left.             ~~~~Hebrews 10:24-26


So maybe a capricious spiritual seeker really is caprine-like after all, subject to their own stubborn curiosity and independence to the point of detriment.  The more I read about goats, the more I want to be a sheep.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Focal Point

After a person suffers from an injury to their back or legs or undergoes a surgery to one of these parts, it is my job as a Physical Therapist to help them return to a normal walking pattern.  So often, even after all their strength has been regained, mobility restored, and pain resolved, they continue to limp.  Especially those who have had chronic pain.  After what has sometimes been years of pain and walking with an antalgic, painful gait the habit is so strong that their entire carriage has shifted to adapt to the pain.  I then tell them to focus on a fixed point on a wall 15-20 feet ahead and walk again.  This time the head is held high, the limp goes away, and the path is straight!  

Sometimes even believers painfully limp along in the wake of year after year of unforeseen hardships and tragedies, missing out on the opportunity for joy.  I found myself in this position not long ago after a number of years of challenging medical problems amongst myself, my husband and both our sons while also walking through a long series of other personal difficulties and tragedies.  While I had faith in God's ability to provide healing for my husband, I felt very unsure as to whether He would say, "yes" to us.  I had lost sight of Jesus as my focal point.

     "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, 
     let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,                           fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. 
For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, 
and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 
Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, 
so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."
Hebrews 12: 1-3

When I keep my eyes focused on Jesus he shores up the painful limping I have incorporated into my life, helps me remove the things that are tripping up my legs, and puts me back on a straight path.  


Trust in the Lord with all your heart 
and lean not on your own understanding; 
in all your ways submit to him, 
and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Shifting my focus away from the pains and difficulties I have been through and/or are going through back to the cross keeps me in line with the heart of God and His will for my life.  He guides my steps  so that I can "run and not grow weary, walk and not grow faint," soaring with renewed strength on wings like eagles.